Has anyone experience of bereavement of both parents at a young age? ?

I am 38 and lost my mother last year and my father aged 12, I feel mid-life crises, mortality and an urgency to live more - I was close to my mum, but have been living independently most of my life, she was not really in it - but I feel a great aloneness, exciting and daunting feeling. Can anyone share their own experiences of being an "adult orphan" - I am not married and have no children